Embarassing Dream?

OK, so I don't know if I would categorize this in the "It's Embarrassing" spot, but there is a part of it that I don't like to share. I am not sure why. Perhaps because as I share it I am putting myself out there in a way that I don't normally do.

Now, if you know me, you know that I don't get embarrassed easily. I do plenty of dumb stuff and laugh at myself before others get the chance to do so. The thing is, this is not one of those. This is one of those, "If they know, they could potentially reject me." things. Now I am not too wrapped up in it, but I do like to be liked. It's part of the makeup of who I am.

That being said, I am also a little excited. It's been a dream of mine for many years. I have always wanted to write music and record it. I got the chance twice to do that on our youth ministry worship CDs. Recorded, not written. That was pretty cool. The bigger dream is to do all my own stuff. I have been tinkering around for a long time. Written a few things here and there. Some for youth group or youth events, some just for myself. It's those that put you out there. People hear your heart and they critique your lyrics and your voice, etc.

Now, I know I could probably never win American Idol (although I like to think I could make it to Hollywood), but then you have Sanjaya...I don't have the heart to talk about that one at the moment. Nice kid. Shouldn't win! Hurt for him with all the "hate" he is and will get.

Anyhow, all that to say...last night I entered a song into the American Idol songwriting competition. I am pretty excited about it. I doubt it will make it to the top 20, but the voting for them starts on May 2. They will post the top 20 and people can cast their vote for who should get their song for the AI winner. That song will also be the first single the AI winner releases. How cool would that be!?

Anyhow, there it is. I put it out there. Just thought I'd let you know. :)